Chemically Balanced Again!

I recognized that I was depressed without the Gabapentin. Life seemed really bleak and difficult, arduous and thanklessly hard. For two weeks, I found myself constantly on the verge of tears, feeling like I was losing at the battle of life, always feeling like I had to catch myself before I fell off the side…

A Fortunate Realization Long Overdue

So, it took me a little while to put the pieces together, but my mood has been swinging in the depressed range for a week now. This is a result of taking Gabapentin for Fibromyalgia, a medication which caused me to become hypomanic, and for which I stopped taking it; not realizing until this afternoon…

An Unfortunate Turn of Events

I usually try to take the challenges I encounter because I’m bipolar and write about them here in a safe and secure place, hoping to inspire those of you who also have a diagnosis to keep working to improve yourselves and not to quit. Unfortunately, today’s article is not going to be that kind of…

Meditation is Dependably Calming

Whenever I’m feeling stressed and strained and I have the time, I try to take thirty minutes to sit and do my guided meditation. I usually doubt it will relieve the pressure I am feeling, and I am usually pleasantly surprised to discover that if I can just convince myself to invest the thirty minutes,…

Finding Insight In “Mental (2018)” on My Father’s Birthday

“People say we all come full circle, but I don’t think we ever really do. Time is really the biggest thing there is, and it has us for good or ill. I know I’ve spent so much time fighting against myself, fighting for an image that wasn’t me, when I should have been fighting for…

It’s Simply a Chemical Imbalance…

Last night, my poor husband made a minor mistake and I ripped his head off and spit down his neck. Today, I was writing an utterly banal stream-of-consciousness in my journal when suddenly I scrawled out: “I don’t deserve my life because I’ve tried to kill myself three times since my daughter’s been alive.” This…