An Unfortunate Turn of Events

I usually try to take the challenges I encounter because I’m bipolar and write about them here in a safe and secure place, hoping to inspire those of you who also have a diagnosis to keep working to improve yourselves and not to quit. Unfortunately, today’s article is not going to be that kind of…

Meditation is Dependably Calming

Whenever I’m feeling stressed and strained and I have the time, I try to take thirty minutes to sit and do my guided meditation. I usually doubt it will relieve the pressure I am feeling, and I am usually pleasantly surprised to discover that if I can just convince myself to invest the thirty minutes,…

Finding Insight In “Mental (2018)” on My Father’s Birthday

“People say we all come full circle, but I don’t think we ever really do. Time is really the biggest thing there is, and it has us for good or ill. I know I’ve spent so much time fighting against myself, fighting for an image that wasn’t me, when I should have been fighting for…

It’s Simply a Chemical Imbalance…

Last night, my poor husband made a minor mistake and I ripped his head off and spit down his neck. Today, I was writing an utterly banal stream-of-consciousness in my journal when suddenly I scrawled out: “I don’t deserve my life because I’ve tried to kill myself three times since my daughter’s been alive.” This…

Healthy Habits for Relief of Anxiety and Depression

Today, CNN reported that right now during the pandemic, 1 in 3 people say they feel depressed and 1 in 4 people say they feel anxious. These numbers are up dramatically since before the pandemic. People are feeling out of control and like the future is dire. Even people who do not suffer from mood…

Intensive Therapy Session #7: Graduation

I am happy to say that I have graduated to therapy every other week! I am happy—my husband got a promotion to middle school Principal, we are looking for a nice house on the other side of Houston closer to his new school, I’m going to homeschool Chloe this fall to keep her safe from…

The Power to Think and Feel Better

Yesterday, my biggest trigger struck: feeling powerless. I was tempted to get suicidal. Instead, I got really angry and I journaled in all caps for a while. Then, I talked to Dr. Allison. She said that seeing your biggest trigger for what it is and not getting suicidal is progress. While we talked, she helped…

Righteous Indignation

So, my husband and I decided to rent the movie, “Bombshells,” this afternoon and my response to it came as quite a surprise… I found myself enraged. These women, although put in an awkward position, nonetheless were free to make a choice: they all chose to have sex in order to get ahead, get famous,…